Mojo

I think I have lost my mojo... Well yes pleas pull your minds out of the gutter. Not the mojo we all are thinking about (including me), but my writing mojo. I have just now received a project that I have to work on. All I can do is stare at the screen. 

Me, the person who has always been good with words, hasn't been able to write even a single word. So I am all lost and decided to get my mojo back. What better way than to appeal to the masses that I need to write. There is something called self respect also. But we will disregard that for now. 

My mojo is probably lost on account of the countless nights spent staying awake. There is no telling what sort of evil is brewing in my mind, which has rendered me incapable of writing. Something that I have always enjoyed doing. There is no way that I will surrender to my mojo being lost. I demand for it to come back. 

I thought my mojo had been stolen by the abyss of sadness that I had encountered in my life. But I realize that is not the case. Partly yes it might be, just like the old evil friend 'Insomnia' has decided to grave me with it's presence. But I think it is because I have no wish to stay redundant. I want to move on. The many pressures and tensions of life have started to take a toll me and my mojo. Have no fear people, the other sort of mojo is still in place and intact. I have not given up hope. I am still extremely optimistic that by ranting out here to the I seen masses, I will be able to get it back. 

A thought just flashed through my mind, how is it possible for the whole of the world to be full of people, and yet not many are connected in a way they should be? Yes my mind is a weird place to be. But what can I do, there isn't an option of reboot or refresh available. So I have to stay content with my mind being my mind. Apart from that, there is not many different things which can be done. Infact nothing can be done in such a situation. So I am happy just where I am. 

Someone recently said to me you can only love someone once. There might be many connections and many different flings but love comes our way in our lives only once. I found that statement to be rather misleading, sinister, not true, and highly unbelievable. I mean how can we judge which one of the relationships we have been in was our one true love? Is it possible for every person to be the same and be able to feel that feeling only once? And if we lose that person are we doomed for the rest of our lives??! 

I believe all these questions are valid ones. There is no denying the different ways in which we can encounter love. And I believe everyone is different. What I ho early think is that to some extent that person is right. There is true love which comes only once. We as humans are very good at fooling ourselves. So we as with everything else, manage to fool ourselves into thinking that we have fallen  in love again. It might be true to an extent but first love, true love that is will always be just that. I think I recently met and lost my true love. That thought just depresses me to no extent. 

The fact that I had my one true love and lost him is a really sad thought. But I am a woman of self respect so I can't beg people to stay in my lives. Even when I'm in the right and they are in the wrong. Like I said, I have lost my mojo. Probably it is cause of that. But alas, we should all rally and face such problems with an iron clad will. So ciao my pretties I think this is enough for today.