The Would-Be Writer

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS!!!! I hope you all ended your 2015 on a high note and that you have lots of ambitions to fulfil in 2016. I would like to let you all know that I personally don't believe in this resolution lark. why? I will tell you. because people don't change over night right. also it isn't easy to let go of the routine you have set in over the last year.  what i do believe in are goals. people need to set goals for themselves. it is very important to have goals. i mean what use is the end of the year, where you cant measure all that you have achieved.  i personally think that i have achieved quite alot this year. most important thing that i have achieved is the manner in which I handle my shit now. also that i have removed all unnecessary people from my life. i mean what's the point of baggage.  my 2015 was fun, sad, happy, exciting, a year of firsts, tiring, exhausting and last but not the least, it was full of love and support. i cant tell you ...

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Just yesterday I thought would make me believe in love. I feel sick sort of. like I'm at the brink of something and I am sure that I will fall off the cliff. I know, sounds dramatic. however, i kid you not. there is nothing in this world that i would like than to cuddle up with my book and coffee and a good rain.  i mean it might not be something you might like. but hey this is what rings my bell. i feel so lost and adrift that it isn't even a joke any more. there is nothing that i want but peace. see the thing is, that i wanted to stay away from all this junk. honestly, single life rocks. as I have learned over the last four years. i think this post will suck ass (mind my language, i don't cuss much even here on this blog).  in the morning all i could think about was that no matter i have been through, i have always believed in love. you see, there is nothing wrong with me. the only thing wrong is i am too cynical now. there is not much i haven't seen. i have h...

Hi All, Alright so that spelling and grammar will be a bit shitty. since I am typing in a hurry and also not using Word to further make me feel stupid. I just felt the need to pen down these thoughts running in my head. since I am going crazy with them. What I have been wondering lately is whether people come into our lives to just fuck it up. I mean you should come into someone's life to be there. and if you aren't there to stay for a long time, then just clear it in the beginning dude. I mean c'mon we aren't kids anymore. We know what we want, we should be at such an understanding of ourselves that we should understand the impact we may have on other people. I mean come on, are you telling me that you don't know how someone might react to your mean words. Are you honestly asking me to believe that if a girl is spending time with you, she isn't getting attached to you. Are you honestly that dense that you don't understand the small cues and inflectio...

It’s been a long time. And I have so much going on that I don’t know where to start. But i think I will start by saying that I missed writing. It’s so cathartic that I don’t think I can ever get the same peace from anywhere else. I have been busy with work. I have been busy with travelling. But then that is another story for another time. Right now what I want to write about is love. My posts usually are about love aren’t they? Well I shan’t disappoint you all this time also. I say good riddance to all the bad things that have happened to me due to that one person. I say good riddance to all the insecurity I was under due to that one bad person in my life. I say good riddance to all the doubts that clouded my self-worth due to that one person. And I also say this with all my heart that I hope you find all the happiness you deserve. Since I am happy now, or what I think is happy for me. But what I want to ask you ladies out there is why do we women allow men to over shadow ...

There is not much to say today. I just felt the need to write. There are so many things happening all at once that I am at a loss as to what to say. Regardless of the maudlin thoughts in my head, the weather is fantastic on my side of the city. It makes me want to dance and jump around. It also makes me want to go to the beach. YUCCKKHHH!!!!! For all the beach lovers out there, I really don’t like the beach at all. There is nothing good about it. I mean the sand, the water, getting wet, getting sandy, all come at the top of my ‘let’s avoid this’ list. However, I’m a romantic at heart, I have always loved going out on rides in such weather. I mean if I could just share this beautiful weather with you all I would feel like I am distributing joy. It is something better than the gloom I spread around daily. But I like to think I am an upbeat person. I don’t usually get upset for long periods of time. Yes, yes, people who have been following my blog (God bless them) would point out ...

It’s been a long time since I put pen to paper. Today is the last day of the year 2014. It was only last year on the same day that I gave my heart away. It was also 2 months later that I got my heart broken. This was the year; I learned the extent of mental and physical pain I could bear. It was this year, learned that pain is an integral part of life. This year saw me becoming a woman, from a girl. Not in any sexual sense. Just in a way where I have felt myself grow in terms of how I think and view the world. Regardless, something’s don’t change. I've learned that external factors have a major role in how your life pans out. There is nothing anyone can do to help you, if it isn't meant to be. People have come and gone. But I've survived through the pain of it all. Over the years, I never thought that I could endure what I believe is the worst pain I've been through so far. Things are still hard; I still haven’t been able to figure out a lot of things, that I sinc...