The Would-Be Writer

Isn’t life a funny thing, when you have it isn’t valued much. But when you don’t have it, well can’t really speak for the dead. Who knows how much fun they are having. But hang in there with me, while I explain to you why I am talking about it. Currently my grandmother is not well. She has many problems which have now caused her to become bed ridden. She isn’t eating solids, and has to be helped for multiple things. The thing about my grandmother, and why it is so difficult for us (our family) to see her this is, she was the life of all our parties. A woman who was widowed at a very young age, when both her sons were not working/earning. She managed to uproot her family from Islamabad to Karachi, just so she could be closer to her family. She was looking for support, where she got none. She married off two daughters, married one son multiple times (never worked out) and was capable enough of running the whole household herself. From cooking to cleaning to helping her daughters wi...

What is happiness? Is it when you see your child smile for the first time? Is it when you actually see your parents smile at you with pride? Or is it just sitting and laughing with your friends? Or possibly for you your happiness is siting with your partner and just being. What is happiness to you? Do you actually know? Or is it just an idea you have in your mind, which you run around to conform with. Everyone is different, everyone has a different way of doing things. To each and every one, the idea of happiness is different. But the real question is, do you actually know what makes you happy? Do you actually know what gives you a tingle up your spine? Do you know what actually causes butterflies in your tummy? I thought I knew, but slowly and gradually, that tingle, those butterflies have disappeared. They are now non-existent. In the race to grow up, be an adult, I have lost all that I thought or perceived to make me happy. Those butterflies I'm talking about, that excit...

There is not much to say today. I just felt the need to write. There are so many things happening all at once that I am at a loss as to what to say. Regardless of the maudlin thoughts in my head, the weather is fantastic on my side of the city. It makes me want to dance and jump around. It also makes me want to go to the beach. YUCCKKHHH!!!!! For all the beach lovers out there, I really don’t like the beach at all. There is nothing good about it. I mean the sand, the water, getting wet, getting sandy, all come at the top of my ‘let’s avoid this’ list. However, I’m a romantic at heart, I have always loved going out on rides in such weather. I mean if I could just share this beautiful weather with you all I would feel like I am distributing joy. It is something better than the gloom I spread around daily. But I like to think I am an upbeat person. I don’t usually get upset for long periods of time. Yes, yes, people who have been following my blog (God bless them) would point out ...