The Would-Be Writer

There was once a princess, in a far away land. While she may   not have been the prettiest of them all, or the wittiest of them all, she was the happiest of them all. Her mind was full of happy thoughts and big ideas on life. Little did she know that while she was a princess in her own castle, she was nothing but a regular child in the outside world. She was not aware of how her little kingdom was in danger of being shattered. And shatter it did, not once not twice but many many times. Over time, the princess began to realize her ideas of life and love and happiness were nothing but a sham built in her mind. Every time her world shattered, it hurt a little more, and bit in a little deep. However, she never stopped believing, never stopped believing that it would always be alright. She loved with all her heart, and soul. While many deemed her crazy for doing so in the bad bad world they lived in. she never really admitted defeat. She fell, once, twice, many many times. Infa...

Just yesterday I thought would make me believe in love. I feel sick sort of. like I'm at the brink of something and I am sure that I will fall off the cliff. I know, sounds dramatic. however, i kid you not. there is nothing in this world that i would like than to cuddle up with my book and coffee and a good rain.  i mean it might not be something you might like. but hey this is what rings my bell. i feel so lost and adrift that it isn't even a joke any more. there is nothing that i want but peace. see the thing is, that i wanted to stay away from all this junk. honestly, single life rocks. as I have learned over the last four years. i think this post will suck ass (mind my language, i don't cuss much even here on this blog).  in the morning all i could think about was that no matter i have been through, i have always believed in love. you see, there is nothing wrong with me. the only thing wrong is i am too cynical now. there is not much i haven't seen. i have h...

Eid Mubarak to all of my Muslim brothers and sisters. Life is just a shit hole right now. All I want to do is screaming and scream my head off. This is how I feel right now. This is jealousy. Yes self-evaluation is all the rage now. People are just stupid they like to believe they don’t know what is wrong. I believe that all along, people are well aware of what is going on. They know exactly what the mind is thinking and what the heart is feeling. I’m burning up with jealousy. Yes its sounds stupid right? Who in this wide world might admit to it all? Well I’m not that small; I like to be upfront with what I feel. I miss him every single day. I do and I honestly want to bring this to an end. I pray every day for the release from this pain. But it never seems to come. The relief I am looking for, it never seems to come. How is it that I, who didn’t do shit, who didn’t do anything wrong ended up with short end of the stick? Yes I’m back to my whining self. I cannot help it....

I have always been a great television buff. May it be local series or international ones, I latch on to the story and do not let go till it has finished. A week back, my sister nagged me to death to watch a new series, 'Awkward'.  It is a show aired by MTV network. The story might sound a bit cliched, however, it can be related to very easily. The story is about a girl who is not so high on the social ladder, in high school.  It starts from an accident the girl is in, and how the story of the accident gets distorted. This leads to the girl coming in the lime light more than she can ever imagine.  Even before the accident, she was pining over the popular guy. It is surprising how the guy also likes her back, however, he is not ready to make his affections public!!!!! Surprise, Surprise. This might sound a bit generalized, but aren't all guys the same in this manner. Even thought girls are thought to be the shy and timid gender, it is the guys who don't like to...