The Would-Be Writer

Something happened today. A sort of good thing, and when I hung up the phone, my instant reaction was to pick up my phone and make a call. I wanted to tell my person the news. But in a flash I realized that I couldn’t because I didn’t have him anymore. How pathetic? Right? So I did the next possible thing I could think of, which was to call my best friend and tell her. It made me extremely wretched to think how close I had come to actually making the call. Its funny isn’t it one minute there is a person in your life you tell everything to. The next that person has completely disappeared for you. How funny life is… funnier still are emotions. I suddenly had an image of a black ground, with slight fog lower to the ground. This image quite possibly could be the graveyard of memories I have. I will slowly, one by one, have to bury them all. This one particular graveyard will be large. It might possibly be the largest yet. It might possibly be the most visited. Where in my quite mome...

I think my last post was similar to this one . But I can't help it. There are so many things which make the life of a person happy, but only a small thing can make someone sad. I havn't been able to get out of bed, move around, or work. Yea I'm a sap. I suck and life moves on. Sooo easy to say, but hard to do. So anyone who is planning on saying please move on, I would like to ask them to walk a mile in my shoes.  I'm sure there have been people who have had it worse, dead spouses, dead parents, dead siblings, I think there is nothing worse than death. There is no one on this earth.... People just don't get it..... But right now I feel pretty close to it. I don't know if the person this post is about will be able to read it, or want to read it, but I really don't care.  I honestly don't think he is concerned about my hurt. Otherwise I would have had a hug, would have been able to ease my pain by knowing the person I'm crying for shares my pain. But I...