The Would-Be Writer

So aj mai sab kuch urdu mai likhu gi. Zara mood nahi English mai baat karne ka. Actually this is how I think… Alternating between urdu and English. Khair aj I just wanted to check in with my peeps. There is only one thing on my mind. Aj kal ke loog inteha ke kute hote hain. Yes people who know me will tell you ke mai galiaya nahi deti. But the situation calls for that. I have only one question, wo mard kya kehlate hian jo aik aurat ko uske paise wapis dene ke lia rulate hian? I mean what are they known as? is it a special breed? Cause I would like to know. Ke aise bando ki gairat kahan ghas charne chali jati hai? Matlab paise mere, investment meri aur bharam ap dikhao…… I really want to know where this happens. So basically let me give you all a little insigt as to whats happening. I had this friend, who borrowed some money from me. And uske baad uske sath mai ne paise invest bhy kardia the. And now, I want my money back. The douche bag isn’t prepared to transfer the amount via Weste...

Today for some odd reason I was teary all day long.... Nope it wasn't PMS!!! I was just down in the dumps.... And every bad thing which has ever happened went through my mind. I felt so alone, I didn't know who to turn to.. These tears are just a waste if time... But they were there stinging my eyes as I tried to study for my upcoming exams... It has been sometime I had someone to share my tears with. But I think that's alright... I have come to the conclusion that God made tears to be shed in solitude... People don't really know how to handle tears...  I'm at a point in my life where I think I need unconditional love. I need to know that I have my safety net in place incase I fall. I have this phase which comes at odd times where I become a biatch. And no this is not something I'm just saying, it's true.  I'm my own worst critic, so I know what I am. But moving on, I seem to have lost my safety and I think I'm lost without it. Today I couldn...