The Would-Be Writer

Hey all, it has been sometime since I wrote anything. In fact, nowadays, these posts are the only things which are the words written by me. For the longest of time, words were my strong suit. There is no doubt about that. They were the only thing going for me. Lately, even speaking has become difficult. I wonder why that is? Could anyone tell what are the reasons a person, perfectly capable of speech, has now started to stutter? I am writing this post at a time when I have nothing else to do. All my friends, my life lines have gone to sleep. Well not all the two who I love the most. They are amazing friends. One is a classmate from when I was in ninth. And counting, that is almost 10 years. We have had our ups and downs, but we always manage to bounce back. The thing about this guy is that he is a bastard. Hahah yes that is the word for him. He is rude, insolent, blunt, and judgmental and a few other rude words I would like to place on him. However, he is a gem of a person...

I think my last post was similar to this one . But I can't help it. There are so many things which make the life of a person happy, but only a small thing can make someone sad. I havn't been able to get out of bed, move around, or work. Yea I'm a sap. I suck and life moves on. Sooo easy to say, but hard to do. So anyone who is planning on saying please move on, I would like to ask them to walk a mile in my shoes.  I'm sure there have been people who have had it worse, dead spouses, dead parents, dead siblings, I think there is nothing worse than death. There is no one on this earth.... People just don't get it..... But right now I feel pretty close to it. I don't know if the person this post is about will be able to read it, or want to read it, but I really don't care.  I honestly don't think he is concerned about my hurt. Otherwise I would have had a hug, would have been able to ease my pain by knowing the person I'm crying for shares my pain. But I...