The Rebound Kid

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I'm a stupid person. I really am... There is no limit to the extent of my stupidity. How am I not able to get things out of my mind?? I've heard it's relatively easy. What I don't get is how is it easy? I want to know if it's possible to ask the counter part of these thoughts if they are out of their minds??! 
Not a invalid question I assume? But I'm sure I would be deemed unreasonable, illogical, PUSHY and other similar adjectives. Khair iske baray mai kuch khaas nahi karsakte.... It's difficult to change the person after this many years of learning and settling of patterns. 
Yes, I have been brought down to the level of being called pushy! Hah! Asking for what should have been my right is known as me being pushy. 
But then again we all differ in our opinion. I want to know, what to do when someone just pushes you away. No explanation, no sweetness you're expecting from them, no compassion no nothing. You just not only lost a person you also lost every small surity you had regarding you knowledge of them. See how easy it is??? 
Another question I would like to know, is what to do when someone pushing you away might not want to let go. You know they are in pain. You know they are hiding it from you to ease your pain. It might also be possible that they are being in no delicate words assholes. And this is because they want to just kick you out and save you the pain. Alas if it were that simple. 
Doubt is always a harsh reminder of how things might be different from what you think of them to be. But it hurts even to doubt the people you love. It is highly annoying to think you don't know them, correction you didn't know them. Life is a roller coaster ride and people just don't want to face the loop de loops along with the free falls together, as easily as they want to share the giddy feeling rise to the top of the crest...... 
I might be just being mean. But right now I honestly don't give a shit. If you are reading this, let me know if it's all right to go for a rebound?? Am I looking for trouble or is the right thing to do to drive people out of the mind. These are all irrelevant honestly. Thought of other people just makes me want to weep but the thought and possibility is always there. 
The ironic thing is I know I would be encouraged by the one person I would want to discourage me. Isn't life just peachy. A funny thought when I start writing these posts, I go into a ace where I'm writing to an anonymous audience. But infact people can see who I am. Another funny thought I share it with my circle on Google. Hahhahahahha I feel bad now just thinking about it and realizing the impact of these posts on the people woo are reading this.  

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