My baby My Sister

I have no real aim of today's post... All I want to do is write, I miss writing :( this is the only place I get to write anymore. 

Over the years, there have been so many changes in the world around me that I really am surprised I didn't pay more attention to them. 

When I was growing up, there was almost no thoughts or talk of gay people. They were mostly non-existing, or weren't as comfortable being open about  it. The thought of coming out as gay was horrifying. The prosecution thy faces was tooo much.

But now the world has come to accept and embrace same sex relationships. The thing just popped into my head. I was around the time when there was zero tolerance for same sex relationships. Even now people don't understand them, but what can you do when people call in love. 

The manner in which technology had changed, is also amazing. Who could have thought that we would be able to roam around with computers. Who could have envisioned a world connected through signals floating around in the air. My guess is very few people, but it's still happening. 

This post is now being continued on another day from the previous ranting!!! 

I feel stuck!!! I don't know what to do. I thought I would be able to handle the different problems which come with choosing your own partner. But I guess I'm not that strong. I really really am not brave. I'm a sissy!! That's sounds about right. I have learned to be the Quern of Denial for many things. 

But my stupid mind just doesn't allow me to face this hurdle with same gumption as all the other problems I have faced. Infact I'm surprised that I even managed all the others.

Continued on yet another day 

I seem to be in lazy mode big time.... But have no fear I hope to finish off this time.. At the current moment I seem to be craving cake. Hold your horses in thinking that I have gone mad!!!! Not any cake craving the craving is of only chocolate malt cake...!!!! 

While this got me almost slapped at home, the cake is what I would like to think of as better than SEX!!!! There are no other ways to describe it. Yes it might sound a little over exaggerated, but I know for a fact that people who know and love cake the way I do would agree when it comes to their respective cakes.... 

I wish there was some place that could deliver cakes at all times of the day. That would be something out of this world. Any whoooo today was my little sister's farewell sort of like a prom... She dressed up in a shirt of mine which even I hadn't worn yet.... 

But she looked gorgeous mashAllah mashAllah and I just couldn't keep that feeling of being an elder sister proud to bits away. She is genuinely the apple of my eyes. I was 8 years old when she came to the family. 

She was in a way my baby. Not my parents' but my baby. And I still live her like that. Over the years, I have managed to make her comfy enough with me to talk about everything going on in her life. But she is my baby and I feel for her like a mother a father and a brother. 

I really wish I could protect her from all the pain she could ever face in this world... I know that's not possible but that what I wish for her. She's my baby and she's the love of my life.....