Midnight Madness

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People who still read my blog, meager in it's existence, thank you for doing so. Well for the some time I have not been able to sleep at night. I sleep at around 6 in the morning and wake up at around 12 in the afternoon. But oh well. My routine has gone to shit. There is no excuse for it. Provided I have good company at night. I have watched around two dozen plus movies this way. I'm being a very good girl and keeping up with my seasons. 
It's after midnight and I really want to sleep. But try as I might I can't seem to. Uff this insomnia is tiring me. Plus I have lost all motivation to work. At the moment I'm highly motivated to get married. Yes it sounds very funny. But I am hell serious. Plus my mum is now getting down to serious business about getting me married of to some bloke she seems perfect for me. Let me tell you what's requirements are for the perfect match. 
1: He should be taller than me. Meaning if I wear heels he should still be taller than me. 
2: He should have curly hair. Hahahhaha and believe me this is a must. 
3: He should have brown eyes, chocolate brown eyes. 
4: He should have a lot of ambition. Lots of it. 
5: Should be extremely witty and like life in general. 
The last two are a must. 

Let me tell you, people should know that the ideal match you draw up in your mind isn't what you want. Or get for that matter. The guy I fell in love with, well he was something. He was amazing. Wasn't that tall. Didn't have brown eyes. Had ambition. But was a damn pessimistic person. My god he could being the best of us down!!!!! But imagine that, I loved him. Still do infact. Oh and he should love to eat meetha meaning sweets. I'm a foodie. Wouldn't hurt if my counter part also enjoyed it. 
The thing I loved most about this annoying guy is: I loved his annoying side the most. Hahahhaha can you believe that. It was something I had never experienced before. I still love this guy. He's damn difficult but that is what I love the most about him. It took almost 2 to 3 hours to coax things out of him. Hahaha and believe me I loved it. 
My nights were spent talking to him. God I miss that so much. What I wouldn't give to have a good heart to heart conversation with him. No strings attached though. We can't end up anywhere. I just wish I had more time with him. Writing this, things we talked about which I had forgotten are resurfacing in my mind. It's hard to smile when all the things we talked about were aimed at being together in the long term. It is a bitch being in this place. But I have seemed to move on some bit. I have decided on no more guys. 
I sometimes feel that men are able to sense that I am single. The moment I'm single all the guys crawl out of the wood work. And it's hilarious the way they try to work their way into my bed. But this time I was just blind to everything. I was in so much pain. All I wanted to have were his arms around me. Sniffing in his scent. And feeling the comfort of his chest. Hahahhaha and if he reads this his now decreasing tummy. 
I  tired of typing now. Bye for now people, it's too painful to go on at the moment. 

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