HAPPY NEW YEAR

It’s been a long time since I put pen to paper. Today is the last day of the year 2014. It was only last year on the same day that I gave my heart away.It was also 2 months later that I got my heart broken. This was the year; I learned the extent of mental and physical pain I could bear. It was this year, learned that pain is an integral part of life.

This year saw me becoming a woman, from a girl. Not in any sexual sense. Just in a way where I have felt myself grow in terms of how I think and view the world.Regardless, something’s don’t change. I've learned that external factors have a major role in how your life pans out. There is nothing anyone can do to help you, if it isn't meant to be.

People have come and gone. But I've survived through the pain of it all. Over the years, I never thought that I could endure what I believe is the worst pain I've been through so far. Things are still hard; I still haven’t been able to figure out a lot of things, that I sincerely wish I could.

But then again, where is the fun in knowing everything. For once in my life I truly believe that I am where I am meant to be.

Sitting at this desk, I wonder how this will turn out. People might think of me as a sentimental fool. But this is my ode to the old year, to all the pain and all that has passed away. Problems are there, lurking around the corners. I can see them behind the shadows of the entire thoughts hat run though my head.

But I choose to ignore them. Completely and utterly. I will now be the one they will ask before they enter into my realm. Into this world that I am building for myself. No doubt this is over kill from my side. But then again why not? Things can’t always remain as bad as they were. Where at a point I couldn't get out of my bed due to clinical depression. There are so many things I wish I could have done differently. But I don’t believe in regrets and what ifs. There are so many good things in this world.

I plan on enjoying the good alongside the bad. Because in the end, the bad doesn't stay away, it just keeps coming back. There are no take backs in life, so why not be able to say I did this and this and this. The key is to know what you want and work towards it. I have realized that if I keep on slinking and sulking around, then no one will come and help me. It all has to come from me.

So here is to the good and the bad that has passed. And here is to the good and the bad that is yet to come. To everyone who reads my posts, thank you for taking out the time. There is nothing greater for me than knowing that some of you might be regular readers.

HAPPY NEW YEAR. (BELATED)